Happy New Year, I'm ALIVE!!!!

We brought in the New Year by going Roller skating!  Way too fun!!!

Yes, I survived 2010...barely!  Only my close friends know that I have dreaded the year 2010 since I was 12 years old.  Ya, you read that right, 12 years old.....Why?  When I was 12 years old my sister and I went and spent a week at my Grandma and Papa's house for a week.  We always had lots of fun eating Grandmas hot dogs (my grandma didn't cook!), going out to eat to "all you can eat buffets" and getting to see my first major crush....Brian Gardner!  Anyway, that summer, while visiting my grandparents I had a dream.  It was a very detailed dream and in it I died.  When I died I was with my Heavenly Father and it was the neatest feeling being with him.  Unlike any earthly feeling I can describe.  He told me it wasn't my time and that I needed to go back to earth and that he would see me in the year 2010.  When I woke up, I was a little freaked out to say the least.  I tried not to think about it too often, but how could I not?  2010 did seem like forever away.  I wondered if I would really pass away that year or if the 2nd coming would be that year.  Well, in a blink of an eye the dreaded year came.  To say I was cautious is an understatement!  I didn't go on vacation, on a plane, I didn't even like going in car.  I prayed everywhere I went that me, my family and my surroundings would be blessed with safety.  

So, here it is now 2011 and I survived...literally.  I don't know if the dream meant anything at all or if it was just that, a dream.  What I do know is that I needed the Lord probably the most I've ever needed him last year.  Let's be honest...2010 was HORRIBLE.  The birth of Lindsey brought us quite a scare, we almost lost our home to a HUGE fire, another scare with Lindsey's new found food allergies, and the disappointment that has come with 2 expensive fertility failures.  The pain has been almost unbearable at times.  There are lots of other things that happened that brought my spirits to an all time low, but those are more personal.  I learned that I wouldn't literally see my Heavenly Father, but that I would have a very close relationship with him.  I can't say I enjoyed the trials, because I didn't.  I do however, treasure my relationship with my Father in Heaven.  I'm very thankful for the atonement.  I'm thankful that he carried me like he did in my dream.  I'm thankful that somehow someway these things make me better as a person and as a mom.  I'm more than ready for a new year!  2011 is going to be great!!  I'm going to start by LOSING WEIGHT!!!!!  Watch out 7 jeans, I'm going to be wearing you again!